Sometimes...

Sometimes we're too hard on eachother. To the point we make eachother cry when all we want is just to laugh.

Yesterday was one of those days.

1. I'm concerned and annoyed by something unrelated to you, something I can't control.
2. You try to cheer me up. (Never works)
3. I tell you to stop trying to cheer me up! Just let me be and I'll soon be fine.
4. You get mad at me because of what I just said and start shooting away sarcastic remarks.
5. I try to make amends by telling you that it just isn't your fault, that I'm sorry, but you need to let me be for a while, and then I'll be fine.
6. You say something like "Great! Let's just sit in silence then!"
7. I say: "Yes, please!"
8. You say: "Perfect, now my phone's out of battery!" (You were playing a game..)
9. I say: "Ok, I'll park right here and you can leave!"
10. You refuse to leave and say you'll bare with me.
11. We continue to argue about this and that all night long.

I admit I have some sort of attention deficit, I do. It's not that I don't care about what you're saying. But if what you're saying is just.. you know, small talk about current events, this and that.. I'll probably be thinking about something else in under 5 seconds. I'm sorry, I am like that. I still am trying to change that...

You're no peach either! You are even more of a stuck up bitch than I am! Your version of the facts and your agenda is always the one we should follow. I know I push myself over it quite a few times, but hey! I'm an attention whore! Still trying to change that... too...

I'm sorry that lately, the only kind of converation I can maintain is "me talking about work while you listen". And then more of that, and then some more. I admit you must be so fucking tired of listening to my crap. I know you feel like I don't give a damn about you and your life. But I do.

I do.
I love you.
No one can be there for me right now the way you are.
I know I'm always there for you and you also know that.
We're here for eachother.
And what we have together.. We can't have it with anyone else.

I am sorry for all that stuff that happened last night. Driving like a mad man in the middle of the night, under heavy rain and crazy drivers made me realize that maybe we're pushing the envelope a bit here.

Let's try to do some right-now-changing here.

Let's understand eachother a bit more.

I'll do my part and I know you'll do yours.

Thank you. For being you. :P

S'agapo,

XXX